I miss you guys!!!!

Lol so im actually coming on wednesday!!!!! but yeah i miss you!!!!!lol and naomi!!! omg i saw this and it totally reminded me of you and ape. and a lot of other peoples!!!!!

MEEEEE!!!!!! haha

You know what really makes me laugh? when people blame you for things you have nothing to do with or have no control over! " he won't go out with me because of you!"-"its your fault she doesnt love me"-"you broke my heart! all I ver did was love you!!!!"lol

Thats like saying "its your fault its raining outside" or "your the reason why the sky is blue" JEEZ!!!! Do people not realize how stupid they sound????



Lol but so you can get to know me better.....



--THE BASICS--
[name]: Samantha Germaine Van Demark
[birthdate]: May 26
[sex]: female
[relationship status]:Taken by Matt=D
[shoe size]:8
[parents still together]: no
[siblings]: 4 brothers(RIP MATT) 1 sister
[pets]:a dog. Maybe. if my stupid mother didnt sell him. POOR REMINGTON!!!

--FAVORITES--
[color]: black, purple and neon colors
[number]: 8 But i hate 14.
[time of year]: summer
[type of weather]: warm
[food/drink]: Chinese food, monster, hot cheetos, and oreos

--DO YOU--
[twirl your hair]: sometimes
[have any tattoos]: not yet
[cheat on tests]: have
[like scary movies]: love them
[like cleaning]: who does?
[know how to drive a standard]: huh?
[own a cell phone]: yes but it is currently taken away
[collect anything]: nope.

--HAVE YOU EVER--
[been in a fist fight]: yeah
[considered a life of crime]: no
[considered being a hooker]: no
[been in love]: yes
[made out with just a friend]: yeah
[hurt someone you love]: apparently i did all the hurting(YEAH RIGHT!!!!! Grrrrrrr!!!!)
[kicked someone in the nuts]: haha yupper's

--CURRENT--
[clothing]: a black shirt, a green tank top and jeans
[hair]: brown and straight
[song you are in love with]: broken-seether feat.evanescence
[cd in your stereo]: avenged sevenfold(BEST FREAKIN BAND EVER!!!!)
[mood]: lonely
[thing you ought to be doing]: nada

--LOVE--
[first crush]: lol lance
[first kiss]: matt atencio
[first love]: Mr. Damian Micheal Rock
[do you believe in love at first sight]: not anymore
[do you believe in "the one"]: kinda
[are you a tease]: sort of
[would you ever commit yourself to someone 100%]: yezzir

--ARE YOU--
[honest]: sometimes
[sarcastic]: yes
[a daydreamer]: yes
[up tight or laid back]: laid back
[messy or organized]: messy
[shy our outgoing]: outgoing but shy all at the same time

--RANDOM--
[nervous habits]: biting my nails
[are you double jointed]: yeah
[can you roll your tongue]: yeah
[do you make your bed daily]: no
[which shoe goes on first]: right and sometimes left ...

--IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU--

[bought something]: yes
[been sick]: no
[sang]: yes
[missed someone]: yes
[gotten drunk]: nope
[gotten a haircut]:nope
[watched cartoons]: no
[been kissed]: yes
[lied]: yes

--LAST PERSON THAT--
[you spent the night with]: kayla
[spent the night with you]: sam
[saw you cry]: sam
[made you cry]: damian
[you said "i love you" to]: sam
[told you they loved you]: sam

--WHAT IS--
[the best feeling in the world]: when i didnt screw up the perfect summer
[the worst feeling in the world]: when he says he doesnt love me
[the thing you want most in life]:to be happy

=D YAY!!!!

so I'm probably the second happiest (lol don't ask about the first) that i have ever been. I'm going out with matt!lol hes lds and hes in the ft lupton ward. he is sooooo sweet and amazing. lol so we will see how this goes. BUT YEAH!!!!!! so sorry i havent seen you guys in a while!!!!! lol so I'm done with all this emo crap just so you know. no more crying my eyes out over Damian, and no more hating his stupid horse faced (ex!) girlfriend. I finally realized hes not the biggest jerk in the world, and it was just me being stupid.
lol actually he tried to get back with me! lol and all i said was "happy stupid anniversary!!!!" lol I'm so mean. but yeah it was for the best. he wasn't exactly the best influence. lol ROFLMFAO!!!! But yeah so people need to email me!!! i have like no contact with the world, and I'm not at home, so the only thing i have is the computer!!!!!! but yeah so tell everybody i love them and leave me some love! I miss you all! lol well not you Audra. you can go die. lol jk. but you got what you deserved, so i hope your just as miserable as you and Damian made me.


But anyways. CrazyJelloFreak@aol.com!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Or www.Myspace.com/Physcon3rd6521!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




LOVERS YA!!!!!!!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!

The world could just go die. i was freaking text the guy i LOVE, and in the middle of my convo, my friend kendall started texting him asking him stupid questions, one of which was "do you love me?" WHEN I ALREADY KNOW THAT FREAKING ANSWER!!!!!!!!!! GAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but yeh and then also, i havent gone to seminary in like a year, cuz my dad doesnt want my physco mom showing up(cuz they are getting divorced) so yeh..........oh yeh and i just found out i might be moving right over by the rec center, which is right by: GUESS WHO!!!!!!!! D!!!! YAYYYYYYYY!!!! :( yeh poeple should just go choke and die!!!!!!!!!!AHHHHHHH!!!! well people either find me on myspace, or email me: CrazyJelloFreak@aol.com

I seriously need some help, so talk to me!!!!!



LOVE YOU PEOPLES!!!!(well some of you) :(

YEAH....SO......

today was my last day at brighton...im sick of all the crap, so im going to colligieate with my friend brook..........i might go back to brighton when/and if things get better.....just to let you peoples know.

Get over it. I am.

people need to chill out...maybe I don't tell people everything because all I do is get judged. I'm tired of all this. people say i don't care and their right...there's nothing to care about. everything is screwed up, and i know its my fault, but you don't have to keep reminding me of it........and as far as relationships go, I DIDN'T CHEAT!!!! i don't even like him, hes just my friend, so get Morgan off my back. just let me do my own thing and stop trying to control everything. honestly its not your business so just butt out.

D♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥I
♥A♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥Love
♥♥M♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥Damian
♥♥♥I♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥Rock!!!
♥♥♥♥A♥♥♥♥♥♥♥Forever
♥♥♥♥♥N♥♥♥♥♥♥And
♥♥♥♥♥♥R♥♥♥♥♥Always
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥O♥♥♥♥No
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥C♥♥♥Matter
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥K♥♥What!!!!!!!!!!!

THE NUMBER 14!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I FREAKIN HATE THAT NUMBER!!!!!! here's why:

1. Thats my age, and so far its sucked, because i met him right after i turned 14.

2.thats how many hes had (O.O lol naomi)

3.Thats how many times i find myself thinking about him every second of the day!!!!

4.Thats how many promises he's made/broken.....

5. Infinity times 14 is how much i miss him and wanna be with him!!!!!!!!

The most amazing song that describes my life...Watch the video!!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uqFZ3eKFXPM


The saddest thing is you could be anything you could want.
We could've been everything, but now we're not.
Now it's not anything at all.
The hardest part was getting this close to you
and giving up this dream I built with you.
A fairy tale that isn't coming true.
You've got some growing up to do.

*CHORUS*
I wish we could have worked it out.
I wish I didn't have these doubts,
I wish I didn't have to wonder just what you are doing now.
I wish I didn't know inside
That it won't work out for you and I.
I wish that I could stop this wishing and just say my last goodbye.

After all the things you put me through,
tell me why I'm still in love with you.
Why am I, why am I still waiting for your call?
You broke my heart,
I'm taking it back from you.
I'm taking back the life I gave to you.
Life goes on before and after you.
I've got some growing up to do.

*CHORUS*
I wish we could have worked it out.
I wish I didn't have these doubts,
I wish I didn't have to wonder just what you are doing now.
I wish I didn't know inside
That it won't work out for you and I.
I wish that I could stop this wishing and just say my last goodbye.

Goodbye, Goodbye, It's time I say my last goodbye.

*CHORUS*
I wish we could have worked it out.
I wish I didn't have these doubts,
I wish I didn't have to wonder just what you are doing now.
I wish I didn't know inside
That it won't work out for you and I.
I wish that I could stop this wishing and just say my last goodbye.

Goodbye, Goodbye, It's time I say my last goodbye.

I'm not gonna let any of this bother me!!!

People are really bugging me, but I finally decided that I am going to stay out of all this drama!!! It is all so stupid!! I'm bored so you people should call me!!!!!

20 People........

I'm gonna talk about 20 people without saying any names......we'll see if you can guess any of them.......

1. Asian Boii!!!!!! Lol. Your amazing and your like a big brother to me!!!!!! You always know what answers to give me even if they're not the ones I wanna hear.....HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!

2.Haa. We may have our differences but surprisingly we have alot in common.....you stole him away but it's ok because your meant to be anyway!!! your way fun, and a cool chick!!!!!Have fun with him!!!!

3.Cranky Old Man!!!! We have so much fun at work, even if you are too serious...you make me laugh and it's never a boring moment....I know I bug the crap out of you but I don't even care!!!!!!!!!!!!! Lol

4. Wow..boy you are amazing!!!!! I'm so comfortable around you and I know you will always be there for me!!!! are fishey will never die!!!!LMAO!!!

5. Hmmmm. We used to be best friends and I could talk to you about anything....we're in a weird place right now, but we will always be friends...I know you don't approve of everything I do, but you always make me feel better...ILY!!!

6.Your such a shy emo kid! Your so hilarious and sweet! you have my best friends heart and I can see why! Your such a cool friend!!! you take too much of my abuse, and I'm sorry! Lol. (BTW, IF YOU BREAK HER HEART I'LL BREAK YOUR FACE!!!!!!!!)

7.I do not even know what to say about you! your crazy and really cool! your an amazing guitar player and your house was way fun! lol and you have some great abs!!!!!!!

8.ROCKSTAR!!!! your so sweet and I can totally relate to you!!! Thannx for all your help!!!!

9.Omg. your so hott, and way funny. your one of my best friends, but you have a girlfriend!!!!!DANG!!!!!! whatever, I know we'll have lots of fun together anyway=)!!!

10.My lover!!!!!!!! lol your so hott!!!!! we are so much alike it's not even funny! you put up with so much of my crap and I can honestly say your the bestest friend ever!!!!!!

11.=( How sad. your moving in 6 days but your a great guy!!! lol and the hot tub was fun!!!

12. TALL VIRGIN BEANER!!!!!! lol I don't really know you but you already know like everything about me!!! your so easy to talk to and one of my bestest buddies!!!

13. Ugh. This girl drives me crazy. she starts so much drama, and talks alot of crap. Life would be so much easier without her!!!!!

14. You freakin moved to steamboat, but I'll always love you!!!! We totally have to hang when you move back....

15. You stupid stoner!!!! your such a pothead!!! but i love you anyways.....your over suffering at collegiate, but we will always be friends.......

16. Your kinda creepy, and your always touching me and Naomi.......if you could stop that would be great because it's kinda DISGUSTING!!!!!!!!!!!!

17. Oh great. Ape. You have caused so much drama that you don't even know about....I hear your name constantly, and it's really getting old...your cool, but worn out......

18. You and Anthony would make such a cute couple!!! but I understand you have your reasons.....He will always be there for you though!!! your way cool.....

19.You broke 4 of my bracelets!!!! that doesn't mean anything though!!!! your my friends ex, and I will always hate your best friend!!!!!

20........Last, but definitely not least....I really do love you, and you will always be my best friend....I have no regrets, and i really miss you...you know exactly what you do to me, and you know everything about me...I only wish we could have proved people wrong...you hurt me, but I'll always love you........